I didn't want to tell you guys that this was what I was stressed about because it's embarrassing, but I've spent the past two months losing sleep sick to my stomach over the thought of having to do jury duty, and then it came and went and I didn't even have to go to the interview. Since such a comparatively small thing was impacting me so badly, I FINALLY made a doctor's appointment and have now been on medication for nearly a month.

I think medication has completely turned my life around, at least mentally, although I'm willing to admit I sleep a lot more and don't do as much for capitalism. But it doesn't feel like my future is a gaping black pit anymore, which is the actually important part.

To spare you guys the grody details, it had been getting pretty dark for me. You might have been able to tell from stories such as my chicken sandwich psychotic episode, but I had been going down a pit, fast.

I feel okay. I'm going to be okay. This is all I ever wanted - I'm medicated and living as an independent adult. I'm happy sometimes!

On a lighter note, to fill my life with anything other than staring at walls and literally throwing up, I got back into Pikmin with the release of Pikmin 4. I played through and beat all 3 of the original games - I'd never beat a single Pikmin game before because I thought they were too hard as a kid, but I was really feeling it this time.

After that, I ended up getting into Splatoon, something I never really thought I'd do since it isn't my kind of game, but Paula and Lucas are really into it and I like to be involved. And there's more for me to do in it than I thought.

I just kinda stopped using Tumblr after their layout change and I'm on Mastodon now. Yeah, you might know I used to really hate Mastodon, but I always said I liked the idea and now it feels like it's matured as a platform, I'm sorry! I'll probably keep using Tumblr for posting updates but it all goes on here now.

I'm also testing out hosting a backup of my microblog, it's kinda shitty right now but I'm working on it.

I also got into self-hosting Nextcloud, which is kind of like a Dropbox you can keep in your house (for only $30 plus your electric bill), which is an awful explanation but if you poke me about it I might write more about it later.

Phew! I have been busy, just not very social. I'm working on it!!