Still alive. Sorry for the silence.

I moved out at the start of July with the help of Tumblr fundraising. I don't exactly have a great timeline of anything that has been happening for reasons that I will now detail.

I fell deliriously ill on the 5th after a long day of moving furniture that I capped off with the stupendously idiotic decision of using Formula 409 to clean my enclosed unventilated pantry. I started coughing, or maybe I already had a cough. Once back at the new apartment I felt vaguely sick, then suddenly started complaining that it was freezing in the house. Next thing I knew I was in bed.

So I've been in and out of bed for the past week. Humiliating to process now how long it's been. I do think I kept working after that, though less. Was it a cold? I don't know. Most of the symptoms left except for the cough.

But my feet hurt. And my joints hurt and my knees hurt - both knees, for once, instead of just my bum left knee. For two days straight I could not walk or even use the bathroom without assistance. Today I took my shoes off to notice that I had hundreds and hundreds of "freckles", which Paula had to inform me were burst blood vessels. My current theory is that I tried to lift one too many heavy objects, didn't listen to my body because I didn't want to disappoint anyone, and all the blood went to my feet and exploded, or whatever it is that blood does (I'm not a doctor I just write one in story).

I am getting a little better. Well enough to write this. I finally managed to shower today, I'll choose not to think about when the last time I did was.

Once the TV was set up I started watching Mystery Science Theater 3000 again. I like the little guys. I watched Attack of the The Eye People and The Giant Gila Monster. If you have any episodes you like please email me and especially if they are gay in some way.

The worst thing I have been dealing with is that I have not had the energy to do anything that I want to do, other than watching TV, and even that depends on if I can roll over enough to reach the button. Most everyday motions give me intense muscle cramps. I have not been able to wash dishes (which I do enjoy from time to time, as I am boring). I have not been able to set up my craft room where I paint images for Needleminder. I have not been able to do Art Fight where I watch from the outside like a sad wet cat. I have not even been able to read books. I can't open commissions or do streams to continue affording my bills. I can't even figure out how to comfortably rest my feet on the ground.

A lot has happened. Most websites are burning themselves to the ground. I have felt actively drained and depressed. I ended up putting LeechBlock back on Tumblr just so I can have free time, except I just use that for crosswords, my new favorite hobby ever apparently.

Sorry all I have is whining. I hope I feel better tomorrow.